Overwhelm: The Biggest Lie I Told Myself

I felt victim to my “endless to-do list”

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Why do I do this to myself?

Last year I finally realized we all have the same 24 hours a day. It sounds ridiculous, but I think I truly felt like everyone else had more time than me. Or at least, everyone else had less things they had to do within that time. Everyone else had the luxury of recreation and a social life. I’d see friends on instagram having “painting & wine nights” and think, “How the hell do you have time for that? I barely have time to wash my underwear!”

It seems acutely obvious in retrospect, but in the moment it just felt like I was doing everything I could to build my career. Hyper vigilance is addicting.

You’re definitely burned out- yet too hungry, terrified, and excited to stop. It’s like when you’re so hungry that you stop feeling stomach pains. Then when you finally get a taste of food your taste buds explode with excitement! That was the class I signed up for when I finally got to task #28 on my list.

But for the first time I listened.

I’m simultaneously crushed and relieved. It’s the strangest feeling. I was SO excited to finally be engaged in the acting world again. To be in class with other actors, working towards a goal, having homework every day.

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Writer, Coffee Lover, Cat Mom. Writer for Society19 & @thriveglobal. Sign up for my mailing list: https://tinyletter.com/ashanoeliyer

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Asha Noel Iyer

Writer, Coffee Lover, Cat Mom. Writer for Society19 & @thriveglobal. Sign up for my mailing list: https://tinyletter.com/ashanoeliyer